Clarity & Confidence: What It Looks Like
seeing is believing
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I’ll take you along for a real-time version of this, but since I have the benefit of hindsight and the value of a blog that was documented in real-time at the time, it feels like a good place to start.
What I discovered throughout the 21-day process (and throughout the year for that matter) was that there were good days and easy days and hard days, all in maybe equal proportion, but my commitment to myself remained strong throughout.
Day 1 of 21 Days of Yoga is linked here>. And I think my final blog post for the 21 days shares best how it went:
21 Days: Thoughts from the Mat
last night I went to 5:00 yoga. and this morning I went to a 7:15 class! and so my 21 days are complete!
and in a small way they might just be the most important 21 days of my year.
you see, last year was this:
Costa Rica. most of that trip was amazing! and unforgettable! the trip of a lifetime, really. I was so lucky to have so many of you there, and at this precise moment cheering me on. but I'm pretty sure this picture was taken at just the moment that I told you guys that I quit.
I ran by you, was excited to see you, but I was physically done. I only even did a portion of the run so i could find you and tell you that i quit.
and it shouldn't have been a thing. none of you guys cared, no one thought lesser of me, no one ever mentioned being disappointed, from my closest friends and family there was no judgment...just celebration!
but i was really disappointed. and i've been carrying it around with me since then...like this big failure that it really didn't need to be.
I was signed up for several other long distance races last year: the New York ironman, the timberman half ironman, and the New York marathon. but I stopped training and didn't do any of them. over $1,000 in race fees, but I couldn't pull myself up by the bootstraps and get back out there again. I was too weighed down by the failure to finish.
I still did a few short distance runs here and there. Amanda and I gutted through a half marathon in the rockaways...loved it.
I switched my timberman half ironman to the shorter sprint distance and mom and I did it together...very fun.
all was not lost...but I just kept carrying that around with me.
and I think it's time to let it go. and so I have.
I was hoping 21 days of committing to a single thing would help me get my mojo back, help me get some momentum for the year. maybe. but I think mostly it just helped me let it go. and that feels amazing.
so happy day-21!
today me:
It wasn’t about the yoga. the reason I started with yoga as my 21-Day-Thing was because my friend was coming in town for a Baron Baptiste yoga immersion weekend in January and I agreed to join her even though I wasn’t really a yogi at the time. And you know what? The event was underwhelming.
The intention was BEST ME, the goal was to prep for the yoga weekend, the result: letting go of something I had been carrying around for 9 months. WHAT?!
The mojo was definitely back.
